17 November 2024

I'm awake

Thoughts are running riot. I had three puffs and these are the thoughts bugging me
(This one is problematic.)

To remember
Lilith - the corn on her foot. Bake cookies. Sort out school excursion TOMORROW
Bridgette - her sore stomach. Talk with her more.
Isaac - wrestle more. Prep for excursion
Theo - cook eggs and learn with him

Connect with all your kids more. They are here and are yours. 

I checked YouTube by the Alien Romulus full movie searches came up with Nada, except for a fake display for another film. Jade must've been lucky to see it before it was caught. Etc

My gay cowboy from Lance

confirm toolbox Monday 
Ask what's on people's minds
Ask if people can collect broken things when they see them because sometimes I am without a pallet transport
Plan to mark them and separate them
-Collect first

Telling myself I am worthless and building pictures of why isn't constructive
You are alive and your experience is yours
Why are you imagining encounters that haven't happened yet?
(Stop building your own walls)

I am unclear about what lightsaber training is, what aspects matter. I am handling other people's equipment.
-I get to be present
-What is it to you Adam? What is it to your family?
-Be prepared
-bE CLEAR

-Confirm status of current sabers
Talk to people. Understand more. Be responsible and commit to your decisions, including the ones you don't know. Especially when you don't know. Be open and aware.

Make sure to be on top of your duties! Remove the distractions! The ones that you KNOW are distracting you. YOU KNOW WHAT WE MEAN. CLOSE THE TABS!!!
Spend time every day sorting out the day!

People are around you every day. Be grateful you are still alive.

Could AP have been shoved by a different entity instead of the truck? Many drivers crossing lines.
Is my direct experience causality or correlation? Can I conflate my experience with the whole? The circles of self- local community?



Aaaaaaaand I just discovered Isaac's been watching kinky ASMR videos on this tablet. A lot!
 

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