25 November 2024

Busy Weeks

 These weeks of November 2024 have been BUSY. The kids have had performances, we've built decks, I've burned through kilometers of fuel and learned how to transcendentally meditate. We've swung lightsabers and lost employment and applied for jobs and watched rebellions from unrest foment. I've attempted to stay on top of TAFE work and bought far too many movies, we've seen psychiatrists, attended birthdays, lost BTS questions in Song Pop Party and manned canteens and used whiteboards to organize our chores. I've messaged my father for his birthday and spoken verbally with my brother about money from our mother. There's five days left and still doctor's appointments and awards ceremonies and movie premieres and chiropractor corrections and nephew's birthdays and Feasts of Thanks and on the final day, Sunday, November 30th, 11:59pm, my first TAFE assignment for this module is due.

The board is then wiped clean and the month of December 2024 filled in.

18 November 2024

Movies I've watched

Gotta do reviews for

The Chaser
Pitch Perfect 3
Upstream Color
The Hateful Eight
Ride On

17 November 2024

I'm awake

Thoughts are running riot. I had three puffs and these are the thoughts bugging me
(This one is problematic.)

To remember
Lilith - the corn on her foot. Bake cookies. Sort out school excursion TOMORROW
Bridgette - her sore stomach. Talk with her more.
Isaac - wrestle more. Prep for excursion
Theo - cook eggs and learn with him

Connect with all your kids more. They are here and are yours. 

I checked YouTube by the Alien Romulus full movie searches came up with Nada, except for a fake display for another film. Jade must've been lucky to see it before it was caught. Etc

My gay cowboy from Lance

confirm toolbox Monday 
Ask what's on people's minds
Ask if people can collect broken things when they see them because sometimes I am without a pallet transport
Plan to mark them and separate them
-Collect first

Telling myself I am worthless and building pictures of why isn't constructive
You are alive and your experience is yours
Why are you imagining encounters that haven't happened yet?
(Stop building your own walls)

I am unclear about what lightsaber training is, what aspects matter. I am handling other people's equipment.
-I get to be present
-What is it to you Adam? What is it to your family?
-Be prepared
-bE CLEAR

-Confirm status of current sabers
Talk to people. Understand more. Be responsible and commit to your decisions, including the ones you don't know. Especially when you don't know. Be open and aware.

Make sure to be on top of your duties! Remove the distractions! The ones that you KNOW are distracting you. YOU KNOW WHAT WE MEAN. CLOSE THE TABS!!!
Spend time every day sorting out the day!

People are around you every day. Be grateful you are still alive.

Could AP have been shoved by a different entity instead of the truck? Many drivers crossing lines.
Is my direct experience causality or correlation? Can I conflate my experience with the whole? The circles of self- local community?



Aaaaaaaand I just discovered Isaac's been watching kinky ASMR videos on this tablet. A lot!
 

13 November 2024

Film: Pitch Perfect 2 (2015)

Thoughts: It's really better than the first. More laughs, more pace, fantastic music, great performances. Will be watching the third one soon, and I remember feeling let down by that one so let's see if the sequel is the best!

8/10



Film: Robot Dreams (2023)

 Thoughts: I had an old friend named Brice. We met in our early teens in high school, I'm fairly certain it was the first year of high school in Shailer Park, Brisbane. We bonded over nerd stuff, video games, books, anime and just generally each others company. He was an only child from a divorced family, living with his mother and rarely seeing his father. He was quite sardonic, rather sarcastic, and never afraid to speak his mind when he felt something was incorrect or when someone was being Contradictory. Generally this came out as a cynical statement of confusion at what the person was saying or doing call my delivered in a way that showed he didn't exactly know what to do to fix it but he was aware that it made no sense. As time wore on, his general grade Depression expanded, and although he had no trouble with the ladies, he had a lot of trouble accepting himself. I learned in our mid 20s to 30s that he developed a drinking problem, and he lived by himself while working in various writing professions.

Brice was a massive fan of animation. Video games and animation. I never got to the depth of what he probably was into, as we drifted apart over the years during my marriage and work and family commitments, however he always knew what the good stuff was and wasn't ashamed of liking what he did, and we shared a love of such things as Cartoon Network classics, unusual works like over the garden wall, and the more cartoonish works like Adventure Time. I did come to understand over the years that Brice would jump from obsession to obsession, diving into comics, then Japanese superheroes, then pro wrestling. I would meet up with him and he would be gushing about a particular hobby and then a year later I would meet up with him again and there would be a new hobby to gush about, whereas any mention of the previous hobby would be cast aside and spoken of with derision and disdain.

I mention Brice because not only does Robot Dreams feature a generally good natured but rather flighty self-defeating lead character stuck in a serious depressive funk, trying to connect with someone- anyone- emotionally, but also is built on the back of a fantastic soundtrack and an art style that I immediately felt he would greatly appreciate.

As mentioned, Dog is stuck in a frozen dinner, single player, apartment dwelling subsistence, watching late night commercials to pass the time, when suddenly he sees an advertisement for a robot companion. In short time, the build your own robot kit arrives, and after some heavy lifting and construction, Dog and the child-like, ever curious, eternally positive Robot happily venture out into 1980s New York City to experience the sights and sounds. Unfortunately a trip to the beach goes awry and Robot is stuck for an entire season in the sand, experiencing all the negative actions of a world that could care less for someone in need. Meanwhile, Dog’s attempts to rescue Robot from his stationary fate are met with roadblocks at every turn, and he resigns himself to attempting to rebuild his life while waiting for the weather to shift.

I was hoping this film would be dialogue free and it turns out it was, leaving me a happy camper since I am a sucker for a dialogue free visual experience. I'm a massive fan of the silent film era, and can thoroughly appreciate good editing and expressive performances to tell a story. I was concerned that robot dreams would have a hard time filling out the one hour and 43 minutes, however my fears were allayed as the credits rolled. The experience is an enjoyable and an emotional one, with a variety of characters and situations painted across the screen in true 1980s splendour. The animal cast a decked out in fluro lycra and roller skates, the beaches are jam packed with families sunning themselves, with humorous moments peppered throughout the runtime. There's a lot to love here, and altogether a worthwhile experience with Earth, Wind & Fire's fabulous September the backbone and bookend to the whole experience. Of particular note is the sequence with the birds and robot nesting together on the lonely beach, offering cute learning sequences and beautiful music. The character of Robot is the beautiful optimist against Dog’s mild self centeredness, however the nature of all our idiosyncrasies is what makes the film.

I'd say it's a good film to leave on in the background, with music or without. I wonder if Brice likes the film?

7/10



10 November 2024

Film: Music

 Thoughts: I absolutely LOVED this film. Directed, written, story, produced and including music by Sia (with some help from Labrinth). Heartfelt, expressive performances coupled with thoughtful editing and sturdy cinematography result in a musical that now rates as my number one.

Zu (Kate Hudson), a free spirit estranged from her family, suddenly finds herself the sole guardian of her half-sister, Music (Maddie Ziegler), a teenager on the autism spectrum whose whole world order has been beautifully crafted by her late grandmother. The film soon challenges whether it is Zu or Music who has a better view of the world, and that love, trust, and being able to be there for each other is everything. (From imdb.com)

I cried five times. The whole thing got to me. I enjoyed the storyline and the dance sequences, appreciating and accepting that the entire enterprise is designed as a capsule of life, incorporating the big moments that shift us forward while the little details keep up the frame. Characters are painted with honesty and emotion, allowing the performances themselves to feed the drama with plot points as props to hang our messed-up humanity upon. Naturally, the dance sequences are key, and to me they do not disappoint, drawing my focus to the expressions and outfits of the performers.

The music is top tier, making me move and feel the rhythm of underlying context and overt lyricism. Emotion is the core, for a film called Music, and we are asked to make judgements while reserving our initial reactions to situations, statements and reactions.

I appreciated the colour, the sound, the editing especially, and the performances and how the whole thing made me feel. I look forward to watching it again with Bridgette this time!


8/10



09 November 2024

Film: Venom: The Last Dance (2024)

Thoughts: Like with the previous two venom films, the franchise always seems to just fall short and not quite make it. The jokes are *just* not funny, the action is *just* not quite coherent, the story is *just* not quite interesting, the characters are *just* not quite deep. Venom: The Last Dance continues that standard and provides a fitting yet underwhelming end to the trilogy.

Eddie Brock is lost in the multiverse which is a good thing because he is a fugitive on the run after the events of Venom: Let There Be Carnage. Before I even finished the sentence however he is whisked back through a wormhole to his original Earth and immediately set upon by the practically unstoppable minions of a mysterious evil intergalactic Warlord called Knull (played by Andy Serkis!). What follows is a road trip across America with some asides featuring a laid-back traveling family and Chiwetel Elijofor and Juno Temple has military and scientists respectively at the now defunct Area 51. Things eventually lead to a climax where multiple symbiotes come into play and death follows.

I appreciate the hell out of Tom Hardy, and his performance through all the films is and continues to be a whole lot of resigned and frustrated fun. What I found interesting is that the film is directed by Kelly Marcel, the story is written by Hardy and Marcel, and they were both major producers on the film. Makes me think that there was a vision at work here and maybe I'm not catching what they're trying to put down, but looking at it purely for what it is, if this did not feature the character of venom, would I forgive the film? Would I forgive the trilogy? I don't think I'd even be interested.

In each film I feel a lack of investment in any one aspect of the production. The action is hard to track, more than a Transformers film, and generally lacks any real weight. The characters aim for dramatic moments but the overall effect isn't one of true connection. The humour which makes up a significant section of each film is frequently not funny and delivered in manners that don't quite match the material. This isn't a statement on what should or shouldn't be in a film but more so whether or not what is being presented actually works. There isn't really a punchline I suppose. I also found a real issue with this film in particular where I had trouble understanding the dialogue of many characters both human and symbiote alike. 

On the plus side it's fun, my kids like it and there are worse films out there. I genuinely don't feel like watching it again though 😂

5/10



Where I'm at

I started meditating about a week ago. I signed up for 4 day course, 770 bucks, and that's concession- health care card. I palm it off as a good thing, and it's helping. But I'm making dumb decisions with money; I MAKE dumb decisions with money. New TV, then ANOTHER 4K player to make it play what I want. Bought ANOTHER Xbox a month or two ago. Spent hundreds on new movies just last week. I buy snacks, and quick food options, sometimes alcohol. Dumb shit, unnecessary shit, filling holes I'm staring into, acknowledging them openly as I toss my meager earnings- SAVINGS- inside. Load up the fast credit facilities. I WAS debt free, then I bought the FIRST TV earlier this year (last year?) on credit. Then I found out I racked up 12K in Centrelink overpayments a year or two ago, after the divorce.

I haven't smoked weed in a while. The last batch, Jack Herer, really sets off my paranoia, so I've just gone off it. The alcohol has really slowed down too; wine gives me headaches now. Doesn't stop me. It's cheaper and hangs around for less time than a bottle of spirits!

Bought a synth keytar. I can see it gathering dust. Because I hate how the laptop isn't strong enough to handle the app for building music! I let myself get distracted by the minor things.

Beside all this, I feel ok. I feel fine! I am accepting I am a selfish, insensitive, financially unstable axxhole: it's who I am. What is fighting against what I am inside and outside? I do not feel the anxiety of this, and I am feeling less anxiety being this in public, with others. I am learning to accept I have very stunted personal assertive skills in social situations. This is the pain I have to live with: it is my pain. To fight it, lament it is to fail understanding that we all have pain. 

I love my kids, my family, despite my shortcomings and how who I am makes me come up short in all aspects of life. I am a boring, uninteresting, persistent machine of habit. I make a minimal fuss of myself. I make everything worse by being this way and yet I persist, I must. Changing myself by force just doesn't work.



All of the self reflection is a lie I'm feeding myself.

07 November 2024

Film Rewatch: Vacation (2015)

 Thoughts: I don't give a shit; I love this film. It makes me laugh! Same with the boys

8/10



06 November 2024

Film: Irresistible (2006)

 

Thoughts: Irresistible is director Ann Turner’s last film and it's been almost 20 years. As a bit of melodrama featuring top tier actors I found it engaging but a bit quick in its cutting. Letting that slide though, the film is absolutely delicious.

Successful housewife and artist Sophie (Susan Sarandon) spends her day taking care of her two preteen daughters and working on paintings, currently fretting over a new project that involves artists painting works based on their personal trauma. Right from the opening as we see Sophie going about her day, seemingly innocuous moments take on malevolent forms, and she is shown to be a highly neurotic and nervous person with a penchant for mental construction. In comes the stunning Mara (Emily Blunt), the slinky and suggestive coworker significantly reducing the burden of her busy husband Craig (Sam Neill). As the two families draw closer together, Sophie becomes convinced that Mara is trying to steal her man, and not only that, but her personal photos and clothing, her way of life and inevitably her actual life. Who is Mara and is Sophie really losing her mind?

The direction quickly draws you in, using camera angles and pacing to maintain a sense of unease, as the film rocks forward like a child's seesaw on ice. Susan Sarandon looks ******* incredible and plays the part to perfection, with every nervous twitch and manic outburst flowing out from her beautiful frame. She's only improved by a young and tremendously sultry Emily Blunt, and when the both of them are playing off each other sparks fly.  Sam Neill provides a solid rock of empathy and anger, pushing things forward as the beleaguered every man stuck between these two women and the difficult choices that come with protecting your family and following a lead. Of course mistakes are made, but as the film barrels towards its conclusion, things only improve and you're ultimately left with a final shot that clinches the whole thing together like a picnic lunch filled with chilled wine and delicious cheeses.

That being said, some rapid cuts, notably during the trial feel like whiplash and you have to take a moment to realign. It doesn't take away much, but the film suffers because of it.

I look forward to watching it again, hopefully in one sitting next time.

6/10




Film: The Croods: A New Age (2020)

 Thoughts: You'd be hard pressed to find a reason not to love The Croods: A New Age. The film propels forward at an astonishing pace, reminding me of Hotel Transylvania 2 which felt like the team got to let the brakes off and embrace the kooky zaniness. The Croods: A New Age feels much the same, but in its own way, offering crazy visuals, fun edits and winning performances.

The Croods have been travelling as a solid pack for some time, with Guy fully incorporated into the clan, and into the heart of Eep-much to Grug’s dismay. After fighting to survive for every minute of their life, the group stumble into a virtual Eden, maintained and set up by the far advanced Bettermans. Cue much savage versus classy dynamics and some romantic tension with the reintroduction of the long-time childhood friend of Guy, Dawn Betterman.

There's a lot of fun to be had here. The characters are mouldable like clay: squished, crushed, stretched and tossed about like rubber balls. Early scenes such as a shifting pile of sleeping bodies provide tactile visuals with satisfying audio and plenty of room for humour. The actors pivot from emotion to emotion with rich gusto, filling the soundstage with roars, cackles, shrieks and growls all the way down to swoons, purrs and whispers. Jokes repeat but never grow old and the core emotional theme holds strong, reminding us that we do our best work together.

Isaac was sent to bed for his behaviour, so I look forward to watching it again without nodding off and with the whole family.

8/10



Film: Daddy's Home 2 (2017)

 

Thoughts: I'm happy to say that I enjoyed it, and not least because of the fantastic, mind-blowing visual 4K upscale that the HDR10+ and Dolby Vision provides. The film is ridiculous and easy going, doesn't go for broke on any particular count, but is still completely satisfying from an enjoyable Sunday afternoon perspective.

Brad and Dusty are now getting along just fine working well enough together as any co-parents would. In comes their two fathers for the holidays and, Dusty's father Kurt being the self-obsessed ladies’ man that he is, books an Airbnb for the whole family to trip to and enjoy in the last week leading up to Christmas Day. Naturally, everything goes wrong and a variety of mishaps generally involving Brad enduring a significant amount of pain both physical and financial, and inevitably bringing up emotional trauma both current and previous, threaten to waylay the entire holiday season.

I admittedly find it funny. I really enjoy when Will Ferrell's character Brad loses control of the ice thresher, and in a thoroughly inspired bit of directing and slapstick, decimates the entire house’s lighting display, clotheslines his ageing father (John Lithgow), and ultimately cops a rooftop Santa freeze to the head for the second time. I find the movie flows evenly and has no real problems, because it's so good-natured and inoffensive.

It really helps that the film books fantastic as well. Like, you don't even understand how much it improves this whole thing- it just looks so Christmassy that it almost hurts. I'll happily watch it again this Christmas!

6/10



03 November 2024

Film Rewatch: Ex_Machina (2014)

Thoughts: Alex Garland’s cerebral science fiction endeavour is more of a drama than an in depth exploration of scientific ideas, however as with anything Alex Garland my tendency is to dig and dig and continue digging 'cause there is almost always something under the surface, and with regards to the twofer of Devs and Ex Machina, I really want to know just how deep the script goes with regards to AVA and her communication constructs.

Caleb is a talented coder working at Google stand in BlueBook, who in the opening of the film winds a companywide lottery too spend a week with reclusive, enigmatic owner Nathan. Upon making his way to the secluded, high-tech fortress, he is quickly introduced to the mercurial mastermind, and made to sign a waiver ensuring he cannot talk about the tests he's about to perform, on an extremely advanced AI named AVA. He is about to be the first person on the planet to attempt to perform a positive Turing test for true artificial intelligence.

What follows is a deteriorating balancing act between the three major players and a handful of extras, as they explore the nature of control and response, emotion and understanding that makes up what we understand as the human experience. We do not know who is playing who and whether what anyone is experiencing is real, however there is no denying that there is a direction that is being driven towards, and by journey's end what dictates survival and existence will be tested and applied with fatal results.

I picked up the 4K based on a gushing review on blu-ray.com, and I did not find the transfer to be particularly exciting however I haven't compared it to the Blu-ray that I've picked up in the last year or two. I've recently tinkered with the settings on my new Sony TV and currently find the output to be extremely satisfying as my newly minted Star Wars: The Force Awakens 4K can attest. Another rewatch is in the cards so I can continue this investigation into the film, However at this stage I am still uncertain as to how I feel about the film aside from appreciating the technical merits, including the engaging soundtrack, fantastic performances, dreamlike cinematography and intriguing script.

I'm looking forward to it!

7/10



01 November 2024

Film Rewatch: Weird: The Al Yankovic Story (2022)

Thoughts: A HAY BOY?!

I really enjoyed Weird: The Al Yankovic Story the second time around, and not just because it was in 4K with the best audio possible. Allowing myself to fall into the cameo fest, and completely appreciate Daniel Radcliffe and Evan Rachel Wood’s dedicated turns makes the whole experience richer. That being said, there is a lot of patches and stretches where the dramatic takes centre stage and, considering the inherent ridiculousness of the entire enterprise, but the lens by which we are forced to view the film as completely and totally serious, these lengths can really stick out in an otherwise fantastic film. Uneven is the best way to describe it.

I don't really see the point in trying to summarise Weird: The Al Yankovic Story aside from stating it is the life Story of musician Al Yankovic as narrated by Diedrich Bader. He is but just one cameo in a film that relies almost entirely on a constantly shifting roster of cameos, whether that is a fault or a boon is up to the viewer. Knowledge of Al Yankovic and his music benefits the experience or else it results in consistently wondering if most of the events played out on screen are true-or at least that is what my eldest son seems to think. There's definitely some solid quotes peppered throughout so that's a plus!

The film is shot in a meat and potato style with some nice flourishes, usually when it extends into ultraviolence. Almost all the songs are performed by Al Yankovic himself, lip synced by Daniel Radcliffe in the title role. Frankly I'm happy that I own it now, so I get to watch it again, although I do think altogether it is a bit of an uneven and hodgepodge kind of film.

 

6/10



Film: Abigail (2024)

Thoughts: Upon finishing the last act (where I fell asleep) and running through the infectiously enjoyable BTS special features as I folded washing and updated the family wall calendar for November 2024, I can safely give Abigail above-average marks as a thoroughly enjoyable single location vampire romp. 

Boasting an extremely strong cast (Dan Stevens, Kevin Durand & Kathryn Newton 4Ever), a fun script and so many physical FX blood explosions it puts other horrors to shame, Abigail tells the story of a motley kidnapping crew directed by Giancarlo Esposito to abduct the daughter of a rich mogul and hold her for ransom in an isolated mansion for 24 hours as they await an easy paycheck. Naturally things turn sour as their ballet dancing ward turns out to be a centuries old blood-sucking fiend, and the characters get picked off one-by-one in a variety of ways.

Initially I was a underwhelmed by the endeavour, thinking it was just a bit of fluff with an expletive-laden script too busy winking at itself to offer anything of value. But as the film progressed, and upon finishing the final act while still conscious, I can safely say that Abigail rates as one of the better vampire bites, offering solid direction and thoroughly enjoyable asides, such as Kathryn Newton's freshly-possessed self dancing wildly before attacking the remaining survivors, and Matthew Goode showing up for a brief bit of scene-chewing as Abigail's wayward father.

I can easily rate this strongly and will enjoy watching it again for a future halloween.

7/10 



Film: Kung Fu Panda 4 (2024)

Thoughts: Admittedly I started to nod in the last act, though I don't think I missed too much. With the Furious Five receiving only an opening and closing nod, Kung Fu Panda 4 pares down the cast and ups the couples relationships, exploring notions of holding onto the past, and accepting where power truly lies- the connections with others.

Kung Fu Panda 4 sees Po and co going about their daily lives in the valley: cooking, eating, protecting. Master Shifu throws the inevitable spanner into the works, advising Po that the time has come to relinquish the Dragon Warrior mantle to a successor. Enter the fox Zhen, quick-witted thief of Juniper City, and the pair must trek to bring down an evil shape-shifting chameleon terrorising the city.

Tai Lung makes a welcome return in various guises, personal favourite of mine, with Ian McShane returning for voice duties. Honestly there's not much to say, as I found the film overall an enjoyable experience, but muted in comparison with 1 and 2.

6/10



30 October 2024

Film: Civil War (2023)

Thoughts: Phew, a lot of big thoughts. I find myself rolling back through the scenes, from the ending, piece by piece, unpacking the scenes.

The president's final quote: please don't kill me. Just prior, so many innocents killed, killing, waste after waste. Standing for what?

It is a very American war. Uniquely American. Fed by and portraying strange thought processes and standards, ways of living. There is no mention of God, no religious bent or undertone, aside from the god of Capitalism. Possession and ownership, who you are and how you identify in this fractured nation.

I noticed Jesse Plemons is uncredited as the patriot mass grave soldier. Interesting.

The film is a Devs reunion, with Cailee Spaeny, Sonoya Mizuno, Nick Offerman, Jin Ha, Stephen McKinley Henderson. Karl Glusman..... after doing my due diligence I just realized how many there are. So many. Way more than I realized. I have chills right now. I've almost finished a Devs rewatch.


29 October 2024

Film: Godzilla x Kong: The New Empire (2024)

Thoughts: An interesting lack of scale starts to kick in when a film franchise tries to place its vast characters into ever vaster vistas. There is no direction left to go: Fast & Furious ended up in space (I predicted five movies previous) as did Jason, and unfortunately for Kaiju, when their only trademark is being giant versions of primitive animals, expanding only results in the underwhelming experience of smashing action figures together.

Apex predators colliding on land, in the sea, through historical landmarks and eventually towns seems to have lost its impact in this continuation. There's just too many large animals going toe to toe. I started to notice the small details just weren't carrying the weight of these tremendous figures: dirt, water, stones should be the same size as they are to us, just ripped up with each step in gargantuan amounts. This seems to have been lost, so the characters don't create as much destruction just by existing.

That being said, as the film roared on, I found my enjoyment steadily rising. The cast are fine and fun, and the locations colourful and exciting. I am a fan of Dan Stevens, and it was great to see him act the hippie fool. Adam Wingard continues to gain muscle as a director. I noticed some strange fish eye lensing in the hollow earth scenes, I don't know what that was about. Altogether though, I did enjoy it.

6/10




26 October 2024

Film Rewatch: Star Wars: Episode I - The Phantom Menace (1999)

 Thoughts: My late step-father used to watch the pod race scene often for its spectacle and sound. He would vibrate the walls until the windows shook. My mother reminded me of this during the scene as we rewatched.

The relationship between my mother and her second husband was a difficult one for me. All I ever got to see was the down sides. While working with my mother for a few years as her cleaning assistant, I was forced to listen to all the negative elements of their relationship, and of his rapid onset dementia- if a several year downfall is considered rapid. I didn't see much of him in those final years, despite living ten minutes down the road. I did try to create a pathway into helping the man, but the level of animosity he harboured for my mother, cultivated over their twenty year relationship, was terrifyingly pervasive, tainting every conversation and thought. When his wife would appear, it would crash like a wave into the open, and the two of them would exchange verbal venom: his overflowing with attacks on her actions built on so much perceived oppression; hers formed from exhausted verbal and physical abuse and responses to the criticism.

My mother lives with me now, in the house her and my step-father purchased as an investment property. Towards the end, during one of the many conversations about Keith's current demented actions and the trudge through the public health care system, I openly announced my opinion that he needs to just die. I had held this mindset for some time, and as the years wore on during my time working with my mother, I had become less and less wary of stating my true feelings and thoughts on the subject, less evasive and supportive and instead opting for exhausted personal observations. I explained how I only saw and heard what was presented, and that it was all negative. That the physical and mental abuse she suffered was unconscionable and that she should not be there. That her own actions had to be a part of the whole tapestry, and that the whole relationship was fraught, combative, toxic. All of this was based on the picture I had been painted. Dialling back from this conversation, I recall seeing him for the last time, still mostly present before the dementia fully took hold, was a frightfully clear picture of just how twisted the whole thing had become. When I received a tearful, hysterical phone call a few weeks on seeking my presence to come and figure out how to tell Keith that his beloved dog had been put down, without telling him the dog had been put down, I was open about how fucked up it all seemed.

I did go over, and I did attempt to assist. However the minute I walked into the home, my mother walked out and I was left with this pathetically enraged man, spewing bile about Leverne's lies and many statements about her character. He did not know where the dog was, demanded answers. My mother was not being clear. Leverne had told me that she couldn't deal with it, that I needed to work it out. I took one look at the situation, left the building, told my mother she needed to front up and tell him what happened. I called my brother in an attempt to grasp the situation, and to pull more family into this twisted knot, as opposed to figuring it out myself. She turned to ice, went in and told Keith the truth in a very unclear and roundabout way. All ways of conversing that do not work for dementia sufferers, a note I had made open countless times before. The situation circled around and around: hate and blame and distrust and deflection spinning between the two parties. 

He deteriorated, was in hospital for months and months, became a hostile, violent, stubborn dementia patient, moved into a home for a short period after a lengthy NDIS claim, and passed away soon after. His ashes remained with my mother for several years, moving from his own home to the investment property, residing under my mother's bed. I envisioned several different horror scenarios, some of which I think hold serious weight for a story. My mother has become a better person now: clearer, more self-assured, prosperous, functional, caring. I however, continue to be the same misanthropic self-defeating half-finished flake.

The Phantom Menace I've always enjoyed, and despite its flaws it holds well in the memory with its iconic moments and robust score. The collage of visual elements and scene structures seem to lodge themselves into the brain far more than its two sequels- perhaps the sign of how the three films were imagined in the mind of the creator. Open strong, carry the story through. We didn't watch it as loud as I could have.

3.5/5






23 October 2024

Mummies (2023)

Thoughts: I didn't realise it was a musical until the princess started singing!

OK it's not REALLY a musical, but she was singing about her predicament (being stuck in an eternal underworld where nothing ever changes) and everyone around her took it in stride. That's a musical! And, aside from gatecrashing a British stage production of Aida, and then producing a #1 hit record, those are the only musical elements.

Both of those songs also involved her singing about her current state. So it IS a musical! 🤔

There's a cute animal sidekick, and the lead male Tut is not a particularly endearing character: a retired charioteer with a fear of speed inherited from his final race, constantly defending his ego and physically disrupting female lead Nefer's actions. The film spends an unfortunately significant portion on this guy, as opposed to the far more interesting Nefer, aching to break free of her rigid future structure. That being said, the film itself is a basic trot through the conventions of initial hate to budding romance, avoiding fate, bumbling villains saddled with arrested development and delusions of power. The kids like it, the dialogue makes for a somewhat engaging watch, and the baby crocodile sidekick is fun to watch and listen to.

The film was produced by a variety of Spanish production companies, and the quality of the animation is passable, sometimes enjoyable, mostly around the movements and facial expressions of the two leads. Some of the comedic moments hit, and overall it's not a bad sit.


2.5/5